my ultimate goal is to be at peace with myself, eliminate toxic feelings and elements and energies from my life, unlearn negative and harmful practices and thought patterns, stop checking for people that don’t check for me, create a space for myself that is nurturing for growth so that i may generate loving energy for myself and for others, nourish my spirit and balance my energies, i have big dreams and i deserve to live a life i love and let that love radiate
(Source: llleighsmith, via radsince99)
"I deserved better than what you gave me"
"What does it take,
What does it fucking take for you to understand that my mind is under construction and I’m doing the best I can with all that I have,
What does it take for you understand that if I had a choice,
I’d be fucking happy,
What does it take before you comprehend that I’m not okay,
But oh god,
I’m fucking trying,
How long does it take for you to understand that depression is a disease and not a decision,
Will blood dripping down my thigh do the trick,
Will watching me rip my hair out due to stress help your comprehension,
Will watching your own daughter cry in front of you as I melt from devastation maybe possibly make you understand that it’s not just in my head,
It’s in my blood,
What does it take?"
"And if you’re going to walk out of my life and leave, I ask one thing of you. Once you’re gone and you see that I’m doing fine, don’t you dare come back."